Accountability🧿

I’ve always felt I’ve been pretty good at holding myself accountable. However, looking back on the last decade of my life I can see that I’ve been fooling myself. We can make up excuses, point the finger, and play the blame game but ultimately, in the end, we are in control of all aspects of our life.

I’ve spent so many years trying to make everyone happy. Trying to build relationships with people who had no real genuine intention of doing the same. The effort & generosity I was giving up until recently was never going to be reciprocated or appreciated. This is where that personal accountability comes in though…. for years I’ve let my emotions get the better of me when it came to people. Unfairly I set expectations for them that frankly, they couldn’t meet nor will they ever. I’ve had to accept that some people are just who they are.

I’m not saying I’m innocent by any means. I’ve yelled, I’ve cussed, have had moments where I’m not proud of how I handled myself. I can admit that. However, I think when you have dealt with certain things, swallowed disrespect, harsh opinions, overstepping & just plain rudeness, you have a limit. Especially when you’re on your own. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m above dealing with self-serving, selfish, hypocritical, rude people at the cost of my peace. I have complete control when it comes to who has access to me & will without hesitation block anyone who seeks to disrupt my peace.

Blessed Be

KIKI 🤍